Arms mickey
                    
                    
                    
                    
                    
                    
                    
                        
                        
                        You probably will never be like you were  so you will have to learn to funtion with what you have. Just every day funtions are a task , but you are alive, so don,t give up . I understand, i just wanted to Die because it so hard to live with what you have becomeI.was a police officer for approx. 14 years now it is so hard, but , i hope to someday be better.