eva
if you are so miserable and feel as though you are merely existing rather than living, consider this: Iv'e been using no more than i need of CRYSTAL METHAMPHETAMINE for many years now. It's the only thing that brings me relief from my symptoms almost entirely. This is certainly NOT for everyone, particularly not people with schizophrenic edges nor with heart problems. And, yes, there are certain obvious drawbacks-mostly social/legal. But, for myself personally so far(over 20 years with)(on & off-test purposes) it's been worth it. Except for the giant lizard tail tha...kidding.